How a painting session taught me something about myself

Gabrielle KosterLeave a Comment

When I was a kid, I used to l├│ve to paint, draw and do arts and crafts. When I got older, I realized I didn’t have any painting or drawing talent, so I quit doing that.

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But then I attended a painting workshop in Amsterdam, with Dutch artist Roxanne Dekker. I told her up front that I can’t paint nor draw but she told me to just follow the music and paint. Around me I saw beautiful women, painting their butts off. The most pretty paintings were coming alive, from abstract work to still lives. I nervously stared at the blank canvas, then at the paint and back at the canvas. ‘But, I can’t paint!’ is what my head (and my mouth) was saying.

‘I’m afraid to fail’, I heard myself say to someone. Wait a minute, since when am I afraid to fail? Is it that? Or am I afraid to mess something up? Or to express myself, afraid of what people will think of me? I couldn’t believe that my head started thinking all these thoughts, just because I was staring at a blank canvas and people expected me to paint.

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I decided to accept these thoughts, park them and grab the brush: no matter what I was going to paint, the point was that I was painting. I just started doing random things, whatever I felt like. Splatter, sweep, paint stripes. Eventually, some sort of feather was appearing. And I didn’t even hate it.

Artist Roxanne Dekker later explained to me that painting can really be a form of therapy. It can hold up a mirror and make you aware of certain things. I take it you understand that from now on, I will definitely start drawing and painting again. And if it’s ugly or someone doesn’t like it? I won’t mind. I can always start over, can’t I?

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Shoutout to Sloggi for developing their Zero Feel collection and empowering women to be free and to artist Roxanne Dekker for giving me the confidence to paint.

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